Friday, July 6, 2012

Inside looking out

Everyone has dreams... Ambitions.
Little things they expect out of their daily life. Bigger goals of things they've always wanted, of what life is about, of what they want to become. Life isn't about now, life is about what will happen!
This is what drives us on: the little things that keep our minutes by minute perspective moving forward, and the big goals that keep our minds resilient, give us a reason to keep bouncing back.

Everyone has disappointments... Dreams shattered.
These are what change who we are; we either grow smaller, allow our world to become more tightly controlled, and our perceptions are carefully guarded, so that we cannot get hurt in the same way again, or we grow bigger. We fight our own defenses, to become more than who we are. To become what we want to be. The bigger your end goal is, the bigger your ability to keep walking. To do more than survive.

Sometimes when little dreams are realised they actually limit us. They become commonplace; there is no reason to move on. When we think about dreams our we only remember the past ones, we only remember the feeling, the rosy hope of what we wanted to happen. Dreams are not something to grow with... rather something to take our minds off "the real world." God gave us dreams so he could shape us, little dreams are stepping stones, not plateaus, even though we treat them as such. To keep dreaming, to understand that a dream is really a road to where you must keep going, is to keep growing.

When dreams fail, we think that means the goal they are pointing to is invalid, we must change track. Or we think that the dream wasn't important, we couldn't have felt that way for a reason, and we lose the precious lessons in the dream. God gave us an the instinct to learn from what we do in order to improve our performance, but the way we use it depends entirely at what we believe was done wrong. To have a dream, to want something, is an indication of where the heart lies. The way a dream is lived out is built on the goal. There are only true final goals in this world: To glorify God forever, or some self driven agenda, matter what it may be.

What I know about dreams affects how I look at others: People are like islands, sticking out of the sea of experiences. For every tiny bit of a person that I explore, and get to know, there's an entire, interwoven, complicated and messy mountain of dreams lost and realised plunging deep under the ocean. We can never completely get to understand even the sticking out island bit, but we can understand that there are dreams, and the ghosts of dreams, underneath. When you understand that, you look at people through your own lens of dreams, and you can understand their island, on the surface at least.
People can't understand people. the only one who can is the One who knows His creation's heart. I leave the judging of people's dreams up to God, and try to take sure I don't look at other people as something for me to use, and then move on, but as people I may see in heaven. I want to make sure I let God deal with their mountains, and I understand their islands. After all, God's got my island under control; why not explore the rest of His wonderful world?

Everything I post on this blog is from my own heart, and my goal is to have people with much bigger mountains than mine come along and read it, then point out what I've done wrong, since there are things I definitely don't understand yet. Come ye God-fearing elders and help this wee lassie :)

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Witnessing in love


The message of love.. Given lovingly.

Thinking back today on Jesus’s life today I realised… Jesus used EVERY opportunity to witness. He didn’t just talk to people, he changed their lives! Eg: The woman at the well.  Jesus saw into her very soul. Yet he wasn’t repulsed, or even just “interested” in this person, but he wanted to give her true life. So many times I pass over God-given openings because I am afraid, think the person will misunderstand me, or that I can do it later. In reality, I’m wasting my time, and theirs! (Paul understood this too; he told the Corinthians in 1 Corinthians 15:3-4 that he’s delivered the Gospel news to them first and foremost upon meeting them.) Now obviously, as God, Jesus had it a whole of a lot easier; He knew people’s entire lives and exactly what to say to awaken their interest, and rebuke their sins. Yet He did not leave us without a means. Hebrews 4:12-13 remind us of the Word is living and active, and a two-edged sword to bare man’s soul. Living and ACTIVE. That’s a verb… that means it DOES something. Planting scriptures into anyone’s mind means you’re giving it all over to God, and it’s His job anyway… With God’s tools in hand, we are never at a loss. However, this does not mean you should instantly accost every poor unfortunate with John 3:16 whom you happen to have 5 minutes with. This is where I believe many Christians go wrong: They zealously follow 1 Peter 3:15 but seem to completely miss the last few words, that is, to do it in all gentleness and reverence. Now this was coming from Peter, a man who was not known for his gentleness, or reverence, before becoming a fisher-of-men, but rather his rough and ready ways. Yes, witness to everyone you talk to, but no, don’t handle it in a way that merely sows discord! Telling your cashier that Jesus loves her, is NOT going to change her life. However, your conduct towards her goes a long way. Show conduct that is God pleasing, and speak conversations that are God glorifying too. Build a reputation (even if it’s only at your local Woolies!) of a gentle, reverent, and honest person. It’s easier to witness to someone you’ve smiled at a few times :)
This is something we need to constantly keep in mind: An attitude that constantly seeks to give to God all our efforts. Even if the people you witness to never come to Salvation, or even scorn you for adhering to His laws GOD knows, He is the One we are striving for, not earthly glory. 

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Driving in SA


Yesterday while on my way to ice-skating, I had to take a hard packed dirt road for about 7km.
In the beginning everything was just great and dandy. Then a terrible cloud appeared on the
horizon, and the ground started to shake and rumble. A dreaded shape took dusky form, and I
was enveloped in choking dust. It was in my eyes, ears, nose, you name it. I spluttered and
weaved, trying to clear my eyes. Of course, just then, another car comes racing up behind me
(doing about 300km/ph) and thundered past, leaving comet sized rocks to smash into my face
and arms. Filled with sandy indignation, I determined then and there that its Time For All to 
Be Exposed. Perhaps even, if I get broadcasted widely enough, I'll have cyclers across the globe sending me emails of immense gratitude for saving them from this ordeal.

The lovely country roads we enjoy in South Africa often tend to be dirt or sand. And I think drivers go way too fast, without care for pedestrians or others using the “pad”. So to spread awareness for my fellow human beings plights, (and vent my frustration) I thought to start a new blog (yes, another one.) and try keep it going ;)